Well we have made to nine months post dad passing away. It feels surreal that we are without him and mom to call, read his blogs, or get the spur of the moment lets go out to eat calls. There is so much I miss, we all miss.
Patti told me that she and Eve were discussing how odd it is from last thanksgiving to this one. What a difference a year can hold.
Last thanksgiving, dad wanted us all to gather together for a Cowart family Thanksgiving vacation. It was awesome! We gathered, ate, laughed, had a scooter train,and fellow shipped together in a cabin at Suwannee river state park. Dad had us promise that we would do this every year in his and moms memory of their anniversary. From past blogs, you might know that very November mom and dad took an anniversary vacation. They planned all year and looked forward to those times so much.
This year has flown by, it’s strange when you are a kid, a year seems like forever. Christmas is so far away to wait for. As an adult my days rush and stream one into another and holidays approach way faster each year that passes. I am dreading the holidays this year. I know that is a normal part of grief. I miss my family so much. I have so many memories full of joy, laughter and time together, I miss being that kid watching mom and dad trying to hide gifts, devotions after supper every night like clockwork. I miss hearing jones station on the radio when I would take a nap in mom and dads bedroom. I miss watching dad chase mom in the kitchen when she was trying to cook. I miss mom’s roasts and dad’s slumgullion. There is so much that I can’t begin to write.
So this year thanksgiving will be different. None of us could do a vacation together in November, but Me, Eve, Mark, Aunt Rikki and Aunt Julie were able to get together in September at Patti and Rob’s in Chatham, Illinois. I have so many happy memories to be thankful for. I have my siblings, family and friends that share the happy memories with. We might not be able to be all together this year, but thankfully for technology, we will skype together and plan for next years vacation to reconnect with each other. I am so thankful for a mom and dad that gave me a super childhood and family and friends to continue sharing with.
Happy thanksgiving and remember that the connections you have are so precious. Mom and dad taught us that valuable lesson.